It's amazing what a couple hours with your girlfriends will do for you.
Here lately, I've been feeling a bit out of touch with the real me. I've been thinking: you know, I used to have a sense of humor...I used to be all chirpy and crazy and silly...and now I'm just boring. And then I had some of my girlfriends over for a Mary Kay party and VIOLA! A return to me. I felt like myself again. Quirky. Girly. Hyper.
It was nice. Refreshing. We giggled and teased each other and then told each other we all were beautiful. Then we had strawberries and pineapple and fresh veggies with dip. It was fun. It was nice. I really enjoyed it.
My cousin invited me to go to the Renaissance Fair with her the upcoming weekend, and I REALLY want to go. Unfortunately, that bleh thing called adulthood is looming before me, demanding I pay bills. So...I'm not sure if I can go. :(
Sunday I went fishing with my fiance again. We walked the creek and I got sunburned. But only on ONE SIDE. So my left side is bright red and my right side is normal. I look like a female version of Two-Face. It's pretty funny, but also pretty sad. People have been asking me if I fell asleep on my side outside. Lol.
I've less than 50 pages to go with my revising of DRAGON QUEEN. I'm excited and nervous. I have it out to a beta reader right now, and hopefully she likes the edits I've made. :)
I'm still "returning to me". The nearly ten years I spent in a bad marriage took a lot of my identity away, and after two years, I'm still rediscovering joys that I had thought I left behind.
ReplyDeleteWe've got a renfaire in Ky every weekend for the next month, and I'm hoping to make it for at least one day. That's one of those things that I've always wanted to do, but just haven't.
I'm glad you got a chance to refresh yourself; it's an important part of staying happy.
I'm sorry to say that you will go through a lot of your life trying to find yourself. Who I was when I was 23 is totally different than who I am today and yet I'm still trying to find myself. I get lost sometimes. Life happens and I get so caught up in day to day things and being a mom that I forget that I once had hopes and dreams. I'm just now returning to those hopes and dreams and going for it. My only advice is not to define yourself through someone elses eyes. Be yourself no matter where you are at the time.
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Hooray for girl time!
ReplyDeleteI really want to make it to Ren Faire this year, whichever one is closest, so that I can take one of my writing buddies with us. Lots of fun.
And another hooray, for DQ this time! Way to go.