That Cobwebby Feeling

My brain feels like it's full of cobwebs every time I sit down to write or edit lately. I hate that feeling, and I think I might have come down with a serious case of writer's block.

But here's the weird thing: I WANT to write. I have all these AWESOME ideas that keep popping into my head, practically begging me to write them, but I just . . .can't. Every time I sit down at the keyboard, I go blank. I thought maybe it was the keyboard's fault so I tried doing it the old fashioned way with a pen and paper. It sort of helped and then . . .meh.

I've been continually searching for a way to undo this cobwebby feeling, but haven't come across it yet. If you have any suggestions, feel free to share.

On a different note, I am looking for a couple people to read and review Masked Pleasures. All four stories. Including mine, "The Seer's Mask." If you're interested, please e-mail me and I will send you a free (FREE) reviewer's copy. The only stipulation is that you have to review it in a public way, preferably on Goodreads but a blog would work too. Also, just an FYI, but these are erotic stories (which means s.e.x.), so if you're--ahem--conservative, these might not be your thing.

E-mail me at bguthrie17ATyahooDOTcom.

Between Elation and Frustration

Here's the deal:

Just the thought of editing Fury makes me hyperventilate. I'm stressed. I have reached that point where I just want to shred all 200 + pages of it and light it on fire. Do a little dance around it. Chant "Freedom" into the ember streaked sky. 

Seriously.

But I won't. Still, I'm so frustrated that I can't bear the thought of sitting down and looking at it. All my beautiful descriptions that I was once so proud of now read "blah blah blah". If you're a writer, I'm sure you know what I mean.

The worst thing is: I'm BORED with it. I still think (analytically) that it is a good story. I believe that it has potential to be a mind-blowing, rock your socks off, GREAT story, but right now every time I see it, I snarl.

I think it's partly because I have a new love interest: Dragon Queen. It's a WIP, so it's still exciting. It still has the potential to change. There's only very slight editing going on. The story and characters engage me. It's funny (which "Fury" isn't) so it tends to lighten my mood, which makes me want to write it even more.

"Fury" is not a funny story. It's, at times, a very depressing story. It's supposed to be. It's dark. It's deep. It's characters are often tormented and estranged. When I wrote it, I wanted it to be all those things. I STILL want it to be all those things. But, gah, I'm getting a little tired of it. To the point where I want to rewrite it. ::Smacks hand:: No! Not going to happen.

I honestly think that I've reached the point where I might have to just get mind-numbing drunk to edit it. Probably not a good option. ::Sigh::

I will do my best to get to it by the end of this week. My boyfriend is supposed to be off working in another state for a couple of days, so I'll have the house to myself. A great opportunity to remind myself why I once loved "Fury".