I haven't been diagnosed with ADD, but sometimes I really think that I might have it. But then, I have to reevaluate and think that maybe it's just my mind rebelling against all the demands I put on it.
And then a part of it is sulking, just because.
The point is, I can't focus on anything today.
I was all gung-ho on editing "Fury", so I posted the first chapter on the writer's forum. The reactions so far are, well, not ones of amazed wonderment that I was hoping for. So I'm pouting. Just a little. (Never fear, I'll get over it.) But my zeal for editing "Fury" evaporated. I'm going through that moment that all writers go through: where you throw up your hands and ask 'what's the point?'
So, now that I'm throwing "Fury" dirty looks, I decided that maybe it was time to pick up "Dragon Queen" again. And, you know, finish it. I wrote a couple paragraphs but I'm stuck. There is SOMETHING MISSING! (Besides my confidence.) So I stared at the screen for a little while before throwing up my hands again and deciding to find something else to do. But nothing appeals.
Well, a nap appeals, but that's not an option at the moment.
Grr. Maybe I need some caffeine or something (except I'm not supposed to have caffeine. Bummer). Really, someone needs to whip me up a concentration potion (or at least chocolate cake).
No caffeine? How can a writer survive with no caffeine? lol
ReplyDeleteHmm. When I wrote a character who can't have caffeine, there was a specific reason... ;)
I've had days like that. Pick a task, set a time limit, and at the end of the time, if nothing is happening, move on to something else.
ReplyDeleteI've had a really hard time keeping up with critiques for the past couple months. So many new people, and I want to help them, to pass on the advise and assistance I'd received when I joined. But there's just too many, and my focus tends to head for the stories I've been following for some time. So then I feel guilty and tend to avoid everyone's which is fair to no one. *sigh* I'll try to go take a look at Fury in the morning. It is a good story.
Yours is just an issue of expectation. You expectations left you wanting, and you unfulfilled wanting left you hurt. Don't worry kiddo, things tamer time. At least you don't have to die for your "art" to be recognized.
ReplyDeleteYou did a good job and you worked really hard. don't turn your back on that. You have that, and no one else can take you away. You wrote the story for you remember? Remember how you toiled and pour out your blood, sweat and tears out into this story. Its easy for others just to look at the paper or the display of it and just look away and not care.
and your not a name yet, you just can't write on your own bloated, distorted hype. Give it time, and keep writing. I suggest you just don't even look at your reviews for a few weeks, and then prepare yourself for the criticism, just knowing that they are mentioning ideas to make it better, but not all of their ideas are good.
You will get there. I can see this. Oh, as for caffeine, I don't know if you guys have this in your respective areas, but a SLAP energy drink is where its at. It tastes really good, almost citrus-y, unlike nasty Monster, and its pretty much legalized crack. Be prepared to bounce off the walls. I usually just drink them whenever I am tired as crap. Which is right now, just finished with a critical conflicting hardware issue for the customer. YAY! 24 hours up and still going. Hmmm, I guess I am gonna go change the thermo stat on my car soon.